Its our living, your daily bread

234/365- a memory rekindled

2010-06-02T12:58:00.000-07:00

Brandon wouldn't be here anyhow, we broke up way back and i dont know why im still here, i know he won't be here anyway, but its fine i would be better alone here. this place is layered with webs and im giving it a wipe.

its strange how couples change and unfit in the course of relationship, its funny how i managed to pluck up the courage to repost this, its even funnier how i suddenly miss this beautiful-piece-turned-ugly song now that ive played , this memory that us those kinkiness like how i miss you now.

Yiruma played a thousand times better,

River Flows in You

A year back,

for you my memory,

4am missing him.

234/365- When i'm with you

2010-06-02T12:50:00.001-07:00

It seemed easy back then, but it wasn't good at all now.

I guess you'll never come back here again, but I always do, just to let myself remember how we were once good together. Its always make me smile looking at our pictures, but minutes later it'll turn sour and it hits me deep down. I always asked myself, why did I change? Why do humans change? I just hope I could stay young forever, never to worry about whats catching up in this young adult age. Many things can go wrong, so I hope every friend out there take care of ourselves.

Merry Christmas Melissa.

236/365

2009-10-06T09:39:00.002-07:00

Oh no, yesterday i was darn upset with mum's story, claiming that 7 christians went to jump off a building believing that that is the way to heaven, and then telling me that christianity is barbaric and all sorts. I took her words in and sulked the whole night, AND THAT WAS HER VERSION OF HER STORY, DAMMMMMN.

8 boys attempted suicide after believing that they could be slayers afterlife.

MYMUMTHELIAR/NEWSTORYTELLER.

7.10.09

236/365- IKEAA

2009-10-06T09:39:00.001-07:00

I had the best IKEA meal, it was so full, so funny so cozy so lovely.

So it was all the teasing and joking on our way there.

Someone tried to sneak behind me but failed.

We acted like my manhattan bag was a bombz.

Someone tried to tell me the spiderpig joke but failed because I didnt watch the movie.

Harry Plotter.

We rushed for the IKEA bus from 27 Busstop.

We didn't know what is 'white light' and everything seems fluorescent.

We ordered 15meatballs, baked chix leg, soup and daimcake.

Someone was on diet, bit 1/4 off the meatball and placed it back on the plate thinking I wouldn't see.

The weird looking chair definitely made me think about M M.

We chilled at the sofa, thought we could take 365. Almost had pillow fight.

Pig snorting sound everywhere we go, who was doing it?

Someone failed the ice-cream temptation's test.

It was such a nice day.

233/365- Lovely with Brandon Lee

2009-10-06T08:30:00.001-07:00

If this is little red dot, i would really wanna see the world.

Once again, meeting B boy in the morning brings me showers of blessings. This time, we met in the terminal. I agreed its so much different from meeting up virtually.

I had to stay in Msia now cos my passport is missing/ lost in your context. Bran's here with me.

For all the things that have gone wrong today, thanks.

I wanted to go for a walk, we ended up drinking and shops were closed.

I wanted to have mooncake for dinner( i simply love them this year, why?), i end up having dishes stuff down my throat by mum.

And others that had gotten SOO cranky, xoxoxoxo.

Still, i enjoyed your company and the visit to my long lost aunt's. Her place holds a little memory up here. The tattered sofa and dark ambience, really pleasant to feel exortic-ed once in a while. i love it.

m. Msia

1000pm

233/365- GENTING!

2009-10-06T08:29:00.000-07:00

A confession of a lie is all it takes for me to feel better.

Hello Melissa, I'm at mama boy. :)

232/365 -MOONCAKES!

2009-10-02T21:10:00.002-07:00

Ive done pretty much for a saturday morning + enjoying a little bit of mooncake.
Packing tidying cleaning retrieving money in the bank, and packing again.
Brush my woes away.
Lan was telling me so much about Moe river i cant wait to be there!

Housewarming plus celebration was definitely heartwarming and cosy. I thought it would be packed with people and laughter but that wasnt the case, cos we people here did the job of what a party could hold. 6 of us and the house was filled with warmhearts. Furniture shopped at ikea was draggy yet fun-filled. Reminded me of Bran somehow. Phil and me bought cups as presents for their opening! its for ourselves to use actually. Today's dinner fell beyond words, i wish i could describe it in plain text, seems impossible.

3. oct 09

232/365 - On my way

2009-10-02T21:10:00.001-07:00

Hello all. This is a saturday post but I'm Blogging on this sunday morning.

Hmm what can I say about myself? I think I'm pro now, I can don't sleep for an entire saturday and still up awake Blogging in bus. Melissa must be very happy cos she always wanted me to try sleeping late too, so we can stay up late together. Am I making sense? Haaaha.

I worked from 12pm to 6pm for my major project and I finished up deleting messages and created an address book. From monday it will be my Week 5, and final presentation is on Week 7. Goodluck Brandon!

7pm onwards was pretty good too. Met up with Weisheng Bailin and clarence, Weisheng drove us around singapore today. Heh. Petrol expensive, sorry for the poor navigation causing so many rounds and rounds that we had to make!

It Is An Awesome Saturday!
Brandsome Sunday too!

I'm on my way to see you now melissa g g g g g.

Nightnight.
04Oct 6.20am

231/365- JUST ENJOY

2009-10-02T09:05:00.002-07:00

okay when we dont blog by feelings and do it by days,
when days of empty posts started accumulating and you pray you wont forget nice memos that had happened, cos when you do, your posts look uber empty.

im upset to tell you, that i might be phailing my comp test.
So much for the late night studies yesterday.
BAAAHHHHF.
on a lighter note, im done with exams and think im the happiest girl in my world.

goodnight
1210am

231/365 - what it takes to be a leader

2009-10-02T09:05:00.001-07:00

What does it takes to be a leader?
This has been a repeating question on my mind for many days already.

Okay Chomps with Dorothy, Yufei, Farhan, James and Irving was pretty fun and mad. Dorothy driving 5 guys around, guys I think we're weak laaaa.

Alright, chiongs for Major Project, see you my dearest in in 48 hours.

230/365 - happy children's day child

2009-10-01T10:45:00.003-07:00

NUA was the day

study3

best weather yet

m.car.

1 Oct 09

230/365 - rules of love

2009-10-01T10:45:00.001-07:00

Borrowed Rules of Love and Chicken Soup for Couples' Soul :)

Yes another good progress made today for Major Project.

I wanted to continue to work on it but I was pondering about Magical Autumn Festival which is happening in school. I guess Bern/Shawn would need my help. It would be better if I were to be there to guide, and help improve their event management and help them learn.

Guess I did fine in achieving what I wanted to do. Yes yes yes now feel the heat! Haaha.

Working together is a small thing
progressing together is a big thing
achieving together is the greatest thing!

229/365 -we need to understand....

2009-09-30T00:24:00.003-07:00

OKAY, THIS TIME, WE BLOGGG!!!
229/365 - we see no effort in us blogging, but yes, our target is to.. be happy:)
Okay me here makes no sense today.
Anyway, its sunshine after rain.
So much had happened in the past few sleeps,
Ive been either me cursing&swearing, meditating or crying like how babies do.
and i believe its getting better, brhbrh.
we/i dont wanna lead such r/s period anymore.
Its torturing and rs-questioning.

9.30.09

229/365 - Goodday!

2009-09-30T00:24:00.001-07:00

Dinner dinner!
Wa tell me tell me how bad this is! We haven't been blogging properly for the past week! Seriously big trouble! Hope it will be back after this SUNDAY okay? :)

MP Interim Assessment was very fine today :)

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228/365 - YAYYYY!!

2009-09-30T00:23:00.003-07:00

YAY ONE DOWN!
ONE MORE TO GO!!
YUMMYHOUSE WAS YUMMY, NO DOUBT.

m. sept2909
school

228/365 - Major Project

2009-09-30T00:23:00.001-07:00

MP in progress!

MP in lounge, cool or not :D

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227/365- Fun in the house

2009-09-28T14:17:00.002-07:00

I have been swimming around blogs and Tumblr and could sense the emotive aura around.
Its rather sick to view friends' life and wonder what's being cool and arty about.

FARTS*

Hanley's Dinner and gathering, studying ESP!

227/365 - talk some sense!

2009-09-28T14:17:00.001-07:00

MIMI IN THE HOUSE!

A good talk with the old birds, appreciate it. It was great, talking about the past mistakes and the stupid things we do, however now its different.

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226/365 - It's gone

2009-09-27T06:52:00.002-07:00

you said that this relationship was gone, thrice.

when one becomes intolerable and put in effort to fill in this gap,

would it ever be complete? will we ever find contentment?

i have nothing to say,

i cant gurantee what will happen in the next 5 days,

i feel really sorryful for us now.

cos everything comes and goes,

arguements that we've been thru for the past one week,

every single day,every single issue seems like im the one who started it.

To sum up, i feel like im the antagonist of my life,

im the guilt-ridden one, im a pushover,

im just the girl who has gotten on the wrong ride.

Then again, all these might be true.

Mel, love cant bring anyone far,

not even nobleness, you are in charge of your own circumstances, not love.

cos right now, back to an once-before era,

love lifts you up, and smashes your heart into million pieces.

If anything good comes about, good for you.

Stay in peace.

You should start seeking what's best for us.

m. negative.

27 sept 09

226/365- I hope nothing like this happens again

2009-09-27T06:52:00.001-07:00

JELLYCAT FOUND IN BANGKOK!

Tomorrow Design school canteen will open, oh chicken chop and cabornara, I miss those times where our food turned cold while we don't care, we locked ourselves in the room, ignoring the food and feeling on top of the world.

5 more days mel!

Brandon
151am

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224/365- alil bit of fun

2009-09-26T01:22:00.001-07:00

Drink

Drank

Drunk

Dinner with Hanley and cmates

and alil surprise for P Lee.

Karaoke after that, drink.drank.drunk.

M. 25 Sept 09

Moscow Circus

224/365- START YOUR ENGINES!

2009-09-26T01:21:00.000-07:00

OTC MEETING TODAY! HOW GREAT. :D

Okay, Phobia 5 was okay-okay, only liked the last part.

B.

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223/365 - Bong

2009-09-24T13:09:00.000-07:00

like hopeless, but im gonna do better next time!

I made an escape from worries, like finally.

Passport issue was finally resolved, not that ive found it:( but efforts to embassy trips and such are pulled off, shopped for a short break late after and a bubbletea for little refreshment.

Um starting to love this life.

Em starting to love this life.

Mm starting to love this life.

B and I have been busy children trying to get involved in our own world fixing deadlines and working on them. What's best was when we leave our skype on for hours and no one's talking (YYY) (Whistles**, DAMN LOUD) Okay, not that i had a bad day, but today's Digital Art session with me myself and I is gonna cost 3-day lack of sleep starting from NOW. And its my first Digi Art, i hope you dont mind!

m.home.

446am

24sept09

223/365 - It takes time to have understanding

2009-09-24T13:02:00.000-07:00

Shot taken in one of the Bangkok's bookshop

I've been reading and reading and reading so much articles, chapters, standards, and I find it really tough to understand sometimes. Maybe like how melissa recommended me, write things down. Okay, I'll write down here. :D

PKCS#5 defines the standard for Password Based Encryption(PBE).
Salt is randomly created to append to passwords, then go through a hash function like SHA-1 to create unique key for encryption.
AES got 3 kinds, 128, 192 and 256. If i'm using 128, then my hash function will return a 128 bits digest(to act as key).
They said Salt is to be public, sent over along with the encrypted data as plaintext. But the thing I was figuring out, so when Salt is public also, how does it help to keep attackers away?
Problem with PBE is password is usually not so long, and of a dictionary word. Cos human ma.
PKCS#5 stated there are two way to alleviate the problem when using PBE.
First we can use Salt. Because each time the Salt is different. So first time if I use my password as ILOVEMEL, the salt will append to ILOVEMEL as ILOVEMELdeeply, where deeply is as the salt. The next time I use the same password, the salt is different, hence it might be ILOVEMELreally. My random salt is 6bytes, 48bits in this case. So now ILOVEMELdeeply will go through HASHING, SHA-1 to produce "a24g6j73sy56" as the encryption key. Encrypt it with the data and it becomes my ciphertext.

I will send out ciphertext+salt+iterationcount to my receiver. Example if a attacker could tap my message, he will receive ciphertext+salt+iterationcount(say 1000). Hacker will now have to either, do bruteforce attack, or dictionary attack. Since its password based , so i guess dictionary attack work better. So a list of dictionary words the hacker can try.
"a"
"LOVE"
"love"
"Haahhahaha"
"myPassword"
"thisisnotmypassword"
200,000 dictionary words.
Each time the hacker wants to try a password, he has to use dictionaryword+salt, go through SHA-1 for 1000 times, then try to decrypt the ciphertext. This for example, takes 1second. So with 200,000 dictionary words with "ILOVEMEL" as one of them, its gonna take 2 days to try them all and he will successfully retrieve the password.

Okay, I'm confused. :(

B. 3am

222/365- Lost soul on day #2

2009-09-23T02:35:00.002-07:00

news of the day:

http://news.ninemsn.com.au/glance/866546/dust-storm-turns-sydney-skies-red

TGIA > Thank God im alive!

i can smell bigtime disappointment everywhere, and the most intense smell: myself.

called cab company, called metrocity, called Embassy and police station.

A trip to the Police S and Embassy gave me a better idea what is going to happen to me for the next 1 to 5 months.

ya know, without a passport in a country really makes one goes bonkers, i feeel insecure and lost somehow. But brandon cheered me up with tons of LOve. hahaha, so many LO, lolololol.

thanks LOve.

Choices that are open now: Stay grounded in Msia for a month without passport to return to Sg, or Stay grounded in Perth for 6 to 8 months without entries to places that need my passport.

i died and was revived again when i dropped my phone at the cafeteria for half an hour, and found, thank God.

Basically everyone who's needed to be informed are notified. Told all of them and that's one burden down PHEW.

Im pretty accomplished today, and thru this experience i gained quite alot of knowledge. Lifetime Experience :|! how credit card company can locate my spendings, how some systems between emigration works and not forgetting the will to do things, that'll eventually lead to where you want to be.

And lastly, when laughter can be found even in your trip with failures and disappointment.

lovely day despite huge stress level!

M, needs to sleep.

548pm

23 sept 09

222/365- Am I on track?

2009-09-23T02:35:00.001-07:00

PIMPLE UNDER MY NOSTRILS. IRRITATING!

The thing is this. I'm doing Major Project ALONE, so I don't know if I am on track. I WANT A for my MAJORPROJECT!

B.

221/365 - this is my psle score

2009-09-22T03:04:00.000-07:00

OKAY TIME FOR A MINI GETAWAY,

I LOST MY PASSPORT,

I NEED SOME TIME TO BREATHE

COS I CAN SMELL BLASTS NOT VERY FAR AWAY.

i rather die now :(

i need a hole a shelter to dig in

i need to get away from the evil odour

i need to alll my important documents to be embedded with microsoft chips so to locate them everytime i lose them,

i need to PRAY REALLY HARD FOR MY ITS PRECIOUS RETURN.

cos i realllly do not wish to be chopped.

Okay whatever that said, i had a dammmmn goood day,

but think again, im dead for tomorrow's exam.

M. Home.

dying for help, F12

22 sept 09

221/365 - CATCH UP!

2009-09-22T02:48:00.000-07:00

Okay, seems like the right side of the blog is dying soon. A wake up call made by melissa today, oh my we can't stop this! We're just 150 days away! Okay persevere persevere, I still believe we can do it okay Meli! Pardon me for the past 3 days of NO PICTURES TAKEN at all, okay okay, time to get it better, okay okay okay okay okay its time to wake wake shake shake!

Today was a lazy day, but not a bad thing, I spent almost 6 full hours working on my program. The 4 day weekend has definitely slowed down my pace, but come on people let's get working again! A very good morning with Melissa over the phone, and good advancement in my program. Smells Gooooooody.

Nokia E71 is a very good phone. Because it allows Melissa and Brandon to communicate at only about $25 dollars per month :) I love technology!

B. 9.52PM

220/365- shoo you reminiscences

2009-09-21T05:27:00.000-07:00

those feelings that were raised in the morning were strange and unfamiliar.

Morning powerpoint was a misery, but thank God it was over, and be glad that one is down, few more to go! :]

The quarrels for the past few days and the drowning in the morning had seriously caused discomposure tis time. i was reminded everynight that i was happy for a day, and then for the next 5 consecutive days. so where did the twist took place? Beats me, one random saturday morning, and the rage has been rolling for 3 days. Seems like this set of dispute has just begun.

GG. still, i wish for the better and am feeling better now.

So whats wrong with the weather today?

i darent even bare myself for a hot shower just now.

i feel so fat i can hardly breathe when i bent over.

i came home and glued my eyes to those little boxes of memories, telling me stuff that used to happen, had happened, and i know i shouldnt be longing for a past that seems quite impossible to take place again, playful gatherings, cheapthrills that were worth these instax shots, outings and fun ++

You wall of memories, should i shave u down?

m.1000pm

home

21 sept 09

220/365 - the old times

2009-09-20T21:00:00.000-07:00

Met up with some 08/09 and some 09/10 for Kyle's surprise at Simpang!

Books and books!

219/365

2009-09-20T04:49:00.000-07:00

im blogging again.

im sure ive blogged loads shit up these days, one from ytd and today.

music suree affects our perspective when we view matters.

M&B vol 1 was on play while i read abit of our past entries and blog,

(Midnight Highway, River Flows in You and You and I)

at that instant me felt u've really put in alot thruout this year.

and thanks to the huge miscommunication and misunderstanding today,

we grew better out of it.

thankful for the help just now :)

goodnight

1208am

home

21 sept 09

219/365 - for the better

2009-09-19T23:57:00.001-07:00

I am been upset with myself, for the things that have happened over the past month. With the return from OSIP and the never ending questions by people and lecturers, I tried so hard to explain myself, trying to tell them the truth and some just doesn't believe. Whether if people thinks that I'm proud, or I'm trying to play the school system, I just want to be happy at where I chose to be at.

As I look back the months that have passed, I realised I'm much of a person who prefers to spend time alone. :D

Being in love with you melissa, was a special thing to me, and I hold this time and experience closest to my heart. 7 months come and passed, needless to say my love for you is growing stronger and stronger. Can't wait to see you again my darling.

However sometimes our quarrels can be really depressing and negative. And my daily worries has been existing too, there are questions on the back of my head wondering why do we quarrel and why do I worry.

Only if worries answered quarrels doesn't occur... I miss you so much.

B
3am.

218/365- so much for such direct sarcasm

2009-09-18T21:38:00.000-07:00

I FELT LIKE SHIT TODAY,

DONT ASK WHY.

if only i could bold + increase the font size to as big as i want.

seems like you insiders are having a very very verrrrrrry big war.

m.home

218/365 - if its over, let it be over

2009-09-18T18:19:00.000-07:00

217/365 - MELLO MELLO HELLO YOU

2009-09-18T06:39:00.001-07:00

Consistency's really not in our dict these days,

so much of work, so much of time spent together,

we can literally forget this existence alr.

(this was journalled on 19th oct 09)

Partying in the midnight was cowdunk draining + fun.

A therapy for a week of studies, here comes the party.

Asia Cocktail night was awesome( minus the crowds that took us years to walk from one point to another) Girls were sexy guys were koky everyone swayed to the music.

come to think of it, why would anyone want to dance off its soul on the dancefloor feeling that everyone's grinding on each other.

Is it me, or the dim lighting that made everyone look awesome that night?

bahh,

Meet up with Bernie was prolly one of the best that happened that night.

She's an awesome primary school mate, who used to be my bro's girlfriend's niece, we knew each other exists, but we never talk. We knew we're both in WA but we're either tooo lazy, or toooo busy for a meet up for the past 8 months. tooooooo lazy, u reckon?

We met up for a short chat, offered me a tequila shot despite knowing that ive got a Vodka lime on hand, and hell any alcohol can easily drown me in vomitus. i almostt almostt threw up right after.

Two friends came by and offered me 2 other drinks i wanted to die that instant.

Another experience in clubbing, my first ever in WA :)

tonight's event was for asian students in western aus and to me fun was prolly the best world to describe it cos most of my friends went and its as if its one of the best time for gatherings for everyone of us, at 2am in the morning -.- Hit home earliest, no drink, no drive, no fun, I had to turn in early for 19th sept 09's group meeting:)

homesweethome

18 sept 09

217/365 - a mixed up day

2009-09-18T06:28:00.000-07:00

First I was upset, and then I was yelling nonsense in joy.

Its surprising how things and decisions can change just in awhile. First we can be saying yes yes yes, next moment we might be saying no. Things can change, and sadly people come and go too.

Been working on my Major Project. Progressing pretty well, but I wanna do it better! Let's gooooooo! I heard J is came back Singapore today too. Like oh man, I think I screwed up several things in school. Bad year for mua.

Hope ASIA cocktail party was great for you mel, it was a lovely talk today really really :)

BBBBrandon.

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216/365 - ANOTHER ONE!

2009-09-17T02:52:00.001-07:00

what's happening lately?

the shock that ive received in the morning can last me 72 hours of energy uncharged.

i slept with my lappy by my side the day before, this morning i saw was,

my Lappy faced downwards with its butt sticking up, like a flipped V.

and my mobile broadband crushed and smashed, i bet the impact was there when this poor O'lovely fell from its sleep.

RUHH, f ing careless bird.

Went to ask if i could get it fixed, it costs 3 times as much as what ive paid before,

soooo nah,

everything's pretty burnt with everything ive touched:(

Puppy was calling for help this afternoon, somebody?

F12?

m. home

606pm

216/365 - 365?

2009-09-17T02:50:00.000-07:00

Polytechnic Forum was great with the good dialogue session with Dr Vivian! Walked from Dover to Clementi thinking that we'll save money, instead we didnt because our homes are at the EAST!

I learnt a lot through the simple dialogue, and I get to see so many potential leaders, better and strong and more confident than me. I guess I got to buck up buck up!

Block 365 for 365 today!

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215/365- M M M!

2009-09-17T02:49:00.002-07:00

3 years of companionship, dont die on me:(

215/365- Goodygoodynighttalk

2009-09-17T02:49:00.001-07:00

Been loving the chats these nights (:

214/365- It's pretty hard to tell what does bring happiness. Poverty and wealth have both failed.

2009-09-15T07:47:00.002-07:00

locked in triumph, deadline's calling home

i was ironing all sorts of clothes and nothing went wrong until the iron landed on the first white clothing,it freaking emitted some brown substance and now its stained :S!

The cashier must have had a blind spot, somehow, somewhere. I was charged 18 bucks for ink printer instead of the usual $100. till now im still guilt-stricken and im really wondering if i should make a change tomorrow.. Should I :) or should i not *.^

m.1103pm

roomo

15 sept 09

214/365- B for Birdy

2009-09-15T07:47:00.001-07:00

213/365- listen to me

2009-09-13T23:52:00.002-07:00

haha, what am i doing now?

im in class with everyone.

and while they're on assignments and deadlines, i blok.

Its amazing how i tried to find one who uses the classic MGCY initials and there i found my sister's tweet, i bet she has whole loads to chat about using Plurk and Tweet at the same time,

now tell me about it. And im pretty amazed by how she does it, pheewweeet:*

im starting to love her, more.

she's probably one pure cheap thrills ive seen around .

and now i seriously feel like telling her this existence, meoww gan:)

store your heart here

m. home

808pm

213/365 - Work Ahead

2009-09-13T23:52:00.001-07:00

Its work ahead for both of us!

212/365 - a sad truth

2009-09-13T03:04:00.000-07:00

Request: picture to be taken first thing when we wake up

sorry for the blur

Life has been pretty mundane lately,

Our plans to watch some fun movie is thwarted by my slow network to download the video.

Hada healthy day, went for a swim and workouts, Plus the vigorous cleaning of my room (apparently it was like landfill for garbage), sorting out work and revision,ahaa, A merit for me today.

Okay, no shit, we need some catching up, right?

was telling brandon how sad this is,

scheduled our time for each other by the end of the week,

and to only realise we've got nothing much to say.

so what if by the time im back and we find out we've got nothing much to say anymore?

hmmm.

m. 616pm

homee

212/365 - What's coming up?

2009-09-13T02:59:00.000-07:00

Somehow somehow, I'm not looking forward to my schooling days. 6 more weeks of Project, then 15 weeks of SIP, then graduation? I guess I need to find more fun in my everyday life.

211/365 - you colours brighten up my day

2009-09-12T09:36:00.002-07:00

its a full double rainbow, 14 rows! the 2nd rainbow is less visible,

we crossed to the other side of town, and saw all 14 in a row.

im sooo sooo merry happy!

So blessed with God's promise today:)

supposed to join Amanda and guys for a pasamalam trip at south perth, but didnt.

Alan asked me to join them for a mountain climbing trip at Kalamunda.

They damn funny, at first i wasnt convinced that they're really on a climbing mood cos of the pretty pretty clothes they were wearing, and what i thought to be on this random hiking day was just another Bukit timah Hill/ Fort canning Park walk.

i didnt knoww, we were really climbing on rocks!

What got me convinced was when they hit on a highway to an unknown desserted area, we started walking in, trekking every piece of rock thats walkable. That led us to a sizable waterfall. Little rocks that got our feet all twisted for spaces to cross over, my partially covered shoes all wet.

They were serious. We started climbing rocks of mountain of rocks.

hahaha, i was like wondering wads with the casual clothes they were wearing for a hike. Put on some ropes on us and we'll look like we're really abseiling.

I reckon Donsborough trip isnt as nice as where ive been to today.

Though its not a hotspot, but an exotic place like this, some desserted ulu area where u can find breathtaking scene, * i looove.

its been a great day lovey.

M. kalamunda

211/365 - Movie under the stars

2009-09-12T09:36:00.001-07:00

I just feel like blogging every little detail of my life on today.

I woke up at 5am and slept again. I woke up and couldn't find my handphone pouch even till now(f***).

Rushed up to do my major project, trying to solve the current problem before I leave my house for Movies under the stars. I managed to do it, but I just swooped with another program and I can do it. Don't really understand why, but i'm glad it worked now. Moving on to encryption next week.

Met up Farhan and Kahyuen, then Shawn, then Dean, then Yeeping, then 2 Kimberleys, then Rowena, then Xephrey, then Jowie and Melvin. Watched Ironman, was disrupted with many people and it was a pleasant experience afterall.

Followed on by supper at Cafe Cartel, and then a walk home with Farhan and had a good talk. So now i'm back home, very glad that I wore my contacts for about 9 hours, and also glad I only took 5 minutes to put them up today. :)

Happppy day tomorrow watching UP UP UP with melissa!

I somehow didnt like my posts for the past two weeks. No mood attached. Will be better I hope!

Brandon
Saturday

210/365 -birthday party gone wild

2009-09-11T11:00:00.000-07:00

back from partheee

im sorry if you hate this joke here, but ive got a lover who's almost to kok eye, hahahaha ,oh no you and all, the girl on 209/365 wasnt me :( i was laughing secretly from the disturbance you got this morning:) ssssh!

Photoshoot was cancelled due to rain, whyyyyyyyyy ah ~

Aye, just came back from Monica's party.

wad a party, everyone was prolly irritated or vexed with how it ended.

One by one started throwing up from excessive drinking and others start to leave before asking to clear up the mess.

The mess was = 2 to 3 knockouts + a room full of litters and rubbish + vomit puddles.

i arrived really late and the room was stenched with alcoholics, turn off its okay.

the table was filled with bottles and cans, with that i placed my bubbletea with them, i feel so innocent :)

hahaha, okay, so i drank, not. before i could finish my bbt, i went out i saw Philoe and company, went into the room and saw pukes was all over my drink :(

upsetting, cleared up the mess for them, played awhile.

P P and jiayee sent me home today, tang qu!

had quite a talkwith some friends, kinda trashed rubbish out.

210/365 - MPPPPPPPPPPPPPEEEE

2009-09-11T10:59:00.000-07:00

at Macdonald's!

So upsetting! I tried to make my codes better today for about 6 hours, but ended up it still didnt work. Okay, another 6 hours today and we'll see how it turns out to be.

Supper is aweeeright, with Farhan, Irving and Yufei. Out of a sudden, the thoughts of my Major Project came in and I felt the stress and got so worked up again. Sigh you major project!

Okay okay, finally on Sunday i'm gonna meet Melissa up. :)
You know things are getting busy with my MP, and Melissa having her submission and tests in the upcoming weeks. But i'm adjusting adjusting, this isn't a problem to me, because I know we can :) See you on Sunday Melissa!

B. Friday

209/365 - busy with our own lives

2009-09-10T11:25:00.000-07:00

He told you everything about work,

i'll tell you everything about ourselves.

Ldr is pret tough indeed

we have been walking our own paths lately we have forgotten to share a part or two.

To me, we're losing contact and we're also missing out tons from each other.

from friends to lovers, from lovers to friends.

an hour of clash could be used for anything better than that, eg. a peaceful talk.

m. 10 sept

northbridge

253am

209/365 - feeling lost

2009-09-10T08:48:00.000-07:00

I was doing coding for my project again, and it wasn't easy. But you know time passes so fast as compared to the time during my internship overseas. And the reason being, I love what I am doing. Some people would say I should have stayed on, doing new things is probably better. But to me personally I really want to do what I love to do, or at the very least, things that I had set my heart and soul to do so. Just like once committed, always committed. I can't commit to something my heart hasn't approved of doing. And yes I do take some time to settle my heart and mind, but once done, i'm definitely to give a fantabulous job. I know myself for now :) So glad.

I find myself in a very upsetting mood and lost after council meeting today.

Will a leopard's spots change? How about will a person change for the better? I'm very upset because in my life philosophy and I know to many of us, if we decide to commit on something important we make sure we do it good. Think about the people who are behind your back now. Will they still be behind your back in the months to come? Did you make a wrong decision? Is this something you do not want? Or is this just something you can't achieve? Either way, I think you better brush things up or we lose.

Brandon @ 12mn

208/365 - 090909 ,9-1 PM

2009-09-09T04:52:00.000-07:00

I had thoughts throughout the day, about people being self-conscious. are you guilty of pointing finger at others criticising and judging, being all self-centered, when subconsciously we ourselves are.

heyie, today's date is full of my fav no X 3, and im blogging at 9-1 PM, cos i cant do it later on :)

Pleasant day, though work is piling again, but i managed to handle them,

that reminds me, i bet plenty of people were frightened out of their wits when Omen 060606 6pm hit the clock 3 years back, but yeah, L.o.v.e.

had quite a drink for my standards at the bar, some friends and me danced to the music while the rest chilled at a corner. Went to karaoke later on. Put an effort to come home before the clock stroke 12 so to spend some 0909 time with you, but you're turning in. upsetting, but dont worry, understand how tired u are, hmm.

goodnight ass.

m. hme 090909

1149pm

208/365 - I know I can

2009-09-09T00:52:00.000-07:00

Yes major project has started for me! I wanna do it good, i know I want it.

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207/365 - fingers crossed!

2009-09-07T19:10:00.003-07:00

wassup, today feels like yesterday, except for the schooling hours and all night moodiness i was suffering from the night before. A day on bed made me feel bedridden to the ultimate, but nothing stopped me from meeting those ugly deadlines. So yes, i did all my work on bed, everythingg, even fixing dad's present. Got it done and had it sent to the post office!

AirPork, you wonder. * double flicks*

Keep your fingerscrossed Mickey!i really hope it wont be smashed by the time it reaches Sg!

I was in good spirits today, love me:)

Get over it Melissa, who loves a mean girl.

Gdnight.

The Thailand Tomyum noodles u showed me just now, and then i was wondering if there's many of that instant noodles in the department store? are the shelves flooded with thailand instant noodles??? or instant sticky mango coconut rice :D??

m. 1020pm

8sept09

207/365 - don't keep me waiting!

2009-09-07T19:10:00.001-07:00

Gagggh I hate to wait! I really need my MP briefing to kickstart everything. I'm currently in lounge, with about 10 subcomms who stayed over after IITSC's nightwalk yesterday. I had a fairly good rest, with a good read on "Beginning J2ME from Novice to Professional". I hope it is related to my MP as I have evaluated my topic. Without the briefing I will be like a lost sheep, and skeptical about my readings on the book.

We both slept late yesterday, but I woke up earlier :D

Melissa how is youu!

And greatness! I had my MP Briefing at about 10am. Now i'm going full force into it, knowing in 3 weeks later, I will have more free time to spend wiith somebaday!
:D

OTC on its planning status! GO GO GO!

Brandon
9.42PM
08Sept2009

206/365 - one day klutz in a full time march

2009-09-07T06:00:00.002-07:00

sorry if this is damn in your face.

Spring is in the air???

For today and the rest of the week its going be a gloomy period.

im half drenched from monday blues, morning sure feels like a season like this, but when the rain came it seemed we were back in winter again.

Speaking of which, i have no clue why Spring feels so damp and low. For a start, maybe :(

mr Weather u really had mystified me.

today's pic took me less than a min to get it done sweet.

for a pleasant friend once mentioned," if you have the will to do something, you'll squeeze in time to get it done no matter how tight your schedule is." so caramelissa, stop complaining and finish this series of blog.rgh~ and too if you reallly have the thought to meet a friend, you would do anything to spare a time for him/her.

Tonight's a real slack really. flipped thru webby and found helping hands around, Shawn helped promoted Glenns bandstuff, and that guy, the guy behind thingsweforget.blogspot.com, is a freaking big saint to the community. its another heartfelt.

melissa

940pm

206/365 - Flyyyyy

2009-09-07T06:00:00.001-07:00

Hello Ashely.

Ashely is going off to Valentia today, and I think prolly she is still on the plane. Many were there to send off, sweet loving people. Gave ashely 'The Notebook' and 5 rolls of film, hope she'll be able to take good Vivitar shots in Spain!

Its going to be a good experience Ashely! Don't miss Nigel and family too much! :D

Mum was feeling sick today, I was feeling very tired today. Need some good rest now, tatas!

I subscribed for 1GB data bundle on my E71, so now Melissa and I connect through the internet, 3G connection from our mobile subscribers directly to our phones. And a test call today we realised the call quality is superb! Fantastic solution for us :) Love it.

B.
Monday

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205/365-its not working there

2009-09-06T10:27:00.001-07:00

thanks for helping there

hello there, went to Bible Baptist Church this morning,

it was the insecurity the night before that drove me 2 hours away upnorth from home to look for a church in the rural area.till now, none of which i went was near or still. hmm.

The church i went this morning, was another great experience, it was an experience im afraid to tell myself i should be living such fate in His eyes. Because i believe in baptism and not charismatic beliefs, viewpoints are slightly different.

The family that i visited this morning was godly, i wont have seen any of that like that before. All the kids were v obedient, the mum was really nice, but nah, they werent in 'countryside' wear, its just different from people in the city area.

This afternoon when i got back home it really got me thinking about rs with God, but when i woke up, i felt entirely different, like i have a choice to choose how i wanna lead my life like.

Christian sites with topics such as coming to an end of the world and things about One World Church keeps me searching, keep seeking for the truth. Things like that, i do wonder how i should drive the old nature away and lead my new one.

did my work, did my best.

im blogging to sleep today,

goodnight

m. bed

111am

6 sept 09

205/365- stay home Sunday

2009-09-06T08:05:00.001-07:00

Shot taken in Thailand :D

I stayed home today :)
Had a good long talk with Melissa.

Bran,
Sunday.

204/365 - help

2009-09-05T23:50:00.003-07:00

i had a pretty good day,

jogging, manicure done, caught inglorious bastard with Harsh,

but what got my mood dampened was the Smith's worries and concern.

and now i cant stop thinking about going to church the next day.

i need His sedative pills to calm everyone's nerves, including mine.

i need a secured heart, i wanna feel safe wherever i go.

melissa. stranged.

5 sept 09

140am

204/365 - Happy Birthday Brother

2009-09-05T23:50:00.001-07:00

Let me continue from yesterday...

So I woke up from my sleepover at Lounge, and aye, still so many people around! Me sleeping and people playing pool, watching movie, and watching me sleep?! So awkward.

Initial plans of doing Finance workshop at 8am failed, instead it was at 1pm. Short, quick but sufficient workshop was headed by Chris. And after that, I went home!

Packing my damn messy room, then packed my presents for my brother. The entire party was a pleasant one. All home cooked food somemore! Family members from both mummy and daddy's side, brother's friends were here too. Had a good talk in a nutshell, very family family leh! The only thing is I hated cousins who bitch on other cousins. Come on, i mean, we're a family afterall. It doesnt matter if cousin A said $20 dollars is too expensive. Its his own opinion, but afterall he paid didn't he? So many presents too! Shirt, watch, colognes, Ipod, whoa I want my 21st birthday to be like this too.

After everything, then my sister helped me to pass my presents to my brother. Brother asked why so late? Sister said Brandon shy. WAAAAA. Actually I don't know why too, hmm.

So this picture above is for 365, happy birthday brother!

And today is my mummy's birthday! :D

Brandon.

203/365- cramp you bitch

2009-09-04T06:57:00.002-07:00

while everyone is brewing fun love and joy on a friday night outside,
brandon back in sg, friends hanging out in late night parties and drink drank drunk,
i had our farewell dinner for these 2 jap.
lan was laughing at my eagerness to go out but am pulled back by my period.
I mean,*shrugs, if mense cramp wasnt up for me today i'll be out with kidz too, and this time, i would wanna drink, i realllly am desp to, though i know i cant, okay, maybe coke.
let me take this as a blessing to stay home to finish up work so i'll pull up something by tml or sunday :D
and hellllll i need this nail colour off me asap.
manicure help tml XXX

i was so glad i was in time for Lust, Caution in the afternoon, i put on the blanket,laid on the sofa and watched. 3 hours later i woke up and found myself missing the most sexciting part.
melissa melissa, you're the best turn off today.

the courage that i pulled to turn the guy down was negative zero,cos they were spoken from my heart, that this heart once belonged to this guy, and always will. till then.
goodnight bitch.
1021pm
4 aug 2009

203/365 - Welcome to Singapore

2009-09-04T06:57:00.001-07:00

Ooi, Bee, Brandon, Noi, Tik

GUYS IM BACK IN XING JIA PO!

Miss everyone so bad bad badly! I was very tired because of the lack of sleep and writing of cards the night before. First time being to the airport, doing all the security checks and adminstration myself, really a sweet shit.

And I suck at putting contact lenses! DARNNNNN ><

Okay back to the airplane, I was on SQ975 :) So I watched The Proposal on plane, not a very exciting film, but afterall a pleasant film on plane. I was so tired, 6 minutes before touchdown I fell asleep. Was bumped awake as I touched down. Mummy fetched me home, had talks and talks about this entire trip in Bangkok. Honestly honestly, the people, the country, and the boss is good. But sadly I brought myself into this when I didn't ask clearly what are the job scopes. I assumed IT school, naturally IT jobs given. Maybe that applies to local internship, but can be different for overseas internship.

At night I went for Subcomm teaparty, liked it. Still don't know much people in subcomm, hope my return will make things better! I specially liked the talk at the pantry area. So cozy, so close. So many heartfelt feelings, nothing rude nothing sacarstic no hidden agenda. Just free flow talk and so sweet.

Sleepover at lounge!

B.

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202/365 - im all neutral today

2009-09-03T06:09:00.000-07:00

back in 2009,

she was in Perth, typing away, suddenly she heard footsteps in her corridor, and she knew, the japanese were back.

he sent me a text saying about some japan saddic murder which got me disgusted and i kinda detest them for a reason. it may be a partial view i know, but they are really hateful for stuff like this. sigh.
incidents that i knew of:
cannibalism: Issei Sagawa, a japanese cannibal made celebrity in 1981, and was released after.
gruesome murder: teenage girl mutilated to death by teen guys and such,
and not forgetting world war 2. so much for the Kawaii girls and advanced technology known in worldwide,otherwise who wouldnt look down on you little island.

What ive read online too was, if that Issei guy were to be in Texas, he'll die, even if he's released, he wont survive.

I MUST LOCK THE DOOR TONIGHT.

i shopped around for dad's gift and i have something in mind what to get him already,
prolly a digital photoframe, what do you think:)

m. 956pm
school.
3 sept 09

202/365- My final getaway

2009-09-03T06:08:00.000-07:00

Half day granted, my heart opened out to receive happiness from the streets. I went to buy XA2, then started snapping on the streets. Found a nice lady who brought me to the flower market, Wat Phra Keow, and a walk outside the Grand Palace. She's called Lucky.

Very nice temple, nevertheless, I still prayed.

After that I got scammed by a Uncle. He looked like a nice chap, feeding the pigeons dried corns. I smiled at him, acknowledging his presence and mine. He passed me 3 packets of corn, and I thought, wow he is kind, and I started feeding the pigeons myself. Freaking dirty I know, but the flock birds started to fly to me when they see the corn. All beside me! Whoa, disgusting. And when I had my fun, he smiled to me and say "Money Money". Wa $%^&*^^^!!@@#$. Okay, so I thought he was feeding the birds like I'll feed Mimi, and wanted me to help feed them too. Crap, he said one small bag of corns 20Baht. I used like 6 bags? So 120 Baht for that feeding?! I think I can get more corn at 40 baht.. Grr, I unwillingly paid him 40 Baht. Booooo shit.

Walked to Khao San road, so many Farangs, like a little England or little Florida.

After which I took the river boat, about 30 minutes journey and reached the nearest sky train.

Walked in Siam area, had my lousy haircut and finally....

I met Chris and Ppoy! It was really awesome, been long since we last met! I felt they had more bonding with the exchange group after mine, but nevertheless I'm very happy they took time off to come and meet :) Sweet Chris and Ppoy. Chris became more handsome! Ppoy ever prettier. Take care you both, and I hope I can meet you both again in 2010.

B.

201/365- thoughts to sleep

2009-09-02T10:38:00.002-07:00

Caught an hour's sleep this morning before battling my day out.

Access test in the aftenoon was defs a sweet one. Once again, i managed to do well.

Reached home at 5, did some laundry before sleeping again,

& now @ 2am im finally awake and kicking!

Okay, time to slack abit and bloK.

Spent sometime reading my past entries. i should be glad that i used to blog my thoughts and real longing feelings out.

But as time passes, i dont, cant seem to do that, not in complete sentence. This may sound retarded, but face it.

Before bran slept today he kept prompting me not to sleep late, not to think too much.

Yes, dont worry, im not, but i'm just gathering some thoughts now before i sleep later.

Like what i told you , our first few thoughts and longing for each other really spurs me on, but right, why would we feel the same after 200 days of blogging and meetups during some period of breaks. Do you feel a difference reading the past entries and now? i do,somehow. Perhaps i was yearning for more of the befores to occur again. The dying desperation that was a past we see.

Sadly, we started our rs right before we had to part and hadnt had the time to strengthen this bond. i dont see it dying, neither do i want it to happen. and one fact i had realised, couples being together physically and growing up in their own pace are the envy of many ldr lovers. hahha, but we got it over with, no hard feelings. many might see it as unrealistic, but hey lovely, going thru with your partner is another different thing.

i scanned through my 365 and felt ive been here for quite sometime. 7 months is the duration and we're still fine, im glad. Like it or not, 365 or anytime to 365, this blog would still hold a story of 2 lovebirds. and perhaps if one day choychoy we're gonna split, i'll be glad and contented that ive been in a relationship that feels so real and pretty unique. After reading and all this while talking to bran lee,i starting to appreciate every moves thoughts and action you make.

While love is brewing, we walked this pavement hand in hand, wishing it'll never stop.

we all can see, my friends and me, we are all casualties of love.

m.314am

home.

201/365 - shopping!

2009-09-02T10:38:00.001-07:00

Whoa, first time spend money so willingly! Go home sure kena butter sugar! I still have plans to buy cologne and beer and liqeor and wine and omg omg DFS! Sure kena butter sugar and egg now.

BUY BUY BUY! X)

Colleague drove me to Suanlum, thank you so much! I took her bike, and oh dear. The air is really bad! Once at a junction, we stopped right behind a bus and I had no choice but to experience some CO2 and CO gases, how unique experiences!

I found the bar that we had our first meet up with the thai delegates back in 2005's exchange trip. I FOUND IT~!~!~! It's still full of memories, I sat at the same place, looking left and right thinking of the past. The live acoustic music was still there too, really pleasant.

Over this trip, I've bought two CDs of Acoustic music. So beautiful :) First is Pure, second is World Mestizo Ensemble Acoustic Volume.1.

I bought a lot of pressssssents, but I dont think I'm buying that dress for you Melissa. Sorrrry not much money left leh!

Dropped boss a message at 2am to ask whether I can take half-day leave. Stay tuned to see if he allows.

B.

200/365- B earstuds

2009-08-31T11:00:00.002-07:00

during dinner.

Lan:Aye, dont know why they name the japanese minister Aso-san.

me: hmmm, why not?

Lan: (suppress laughter) Asshole.

She made me rawr like lion while the japanese stared at us wondering whats asshole.

freaking daring.

Another adrupt deadline tml, cham cham.

Anyway ive found both agnes B studs already! its beeen a long period since i had both of them together, the last time ive seen them together was say, March? on #3/365 i had one side only.

A little history about it, bro got them for me during last Christmas and i was quittee surprised i thought he knew about Brandon (B). So, kinda cherish the earstuds for this reason. ehhe.

m.138am

home.

2 sept 09

200/365- a bliss

2009-08-31T11:00:00.001-07:00

Initial plans to go Suanlum Night Bazzaar to make my final purchases, were altered because the colleagues planning to bring me to eat Sushi Buffet :) So glad so glad, very happy deep inside.

Heard from one of my lecturer, my course manager had the impression that I am very unhappy about being here. Am I really unhappy? Have I been expelling unhappy thoughts? Maybe I did, but I didn't feel or realise that is was very unhappy. I am unhappy about the job allocation, but colleagues, bangkok's life were still very very experiential. Also, I could do the job allocated pretty well, just a tiny bit of my mind twitch every morning knowing that the remaining days, I won't be touching on IT. Oh well, no point lodged on negative thoughts!

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Back from the dinner, it was really enjoyable. Though I can't understand what they were saying, but they were cheery, always laughing, I hope I bring back this to Singapore. Make everyone happy!

Boss has been very nice.
Thank you boss.

Brandon.

190/365- an unsteady heart

2009-08-31T08:45:00.003-07:00

Fair enough, the day started like how it ended.

dont leave out being kind & nice to our partners as well.

vicpark

1221am

150am:

i scanned thru all my pictures in fb

and i know im missing everyone now,

im missing this self.

i wish im never this dependent on anyone,

i wish there is minimum quarrels,

But it doesnt matter where i take my road,

cos im here and moving.

so much for being in a Long distance relationship,

it is tough, yet we're moving.

it doesnt matter,

these smiles wouldnt last,i need to go.

Aunt ask me why its alright to be in a ldr,

i said,"so as long as we're happy!"

against my conscience, i repeated thrice.

190/365- I will cherish

2009-08-31T08:45:00.001-07:00

Everything is once again complicated, I just hope we keep things simple. But human is never simple, that is why you see there is news report everyday at 7pm.
If you want to have a constant income and a good life, be the Director of Mediacorp Production. Win liao.

Today is the first time I have a lightning captured on camera. Loved it, though not impressive, I know there are more to come. Bangkok has lightning every 10seconds during this rainy season. Isn't it cool?! Maybe I've never once observe how it was like when I am home. You see, people learn when they're not feeling home. I really appreciate this opportunity to be here, however, however.

The staff quarreled in the afternoon. So funny!

Keeplovestrong,keepmentalitystrong,everythingwouldbegood.
Brandon

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189/365- JAPAN OOI.

2009-08-30T05:22:00.001-07:00

i was in my pyjamas and morning hairdo when the 2 japanese guy arrived.
FINALLY. abit embarassed, my morning face and stale breath,HAWH, ahha.

The smiths had a lock for me just incase they barge into my room anytime.
Quit it,but imagine if it does happen, so the drama!
Anyway Bran is shopping in bangkok right now, oh myy.
WE should be switching lives,period.

m. home

850am

30 aug 09

189/365 - Expand expand go for it!

2009-08-30T01:50:00.000-07:00

Today I went to JJ(Chatuchak) for a shopping trip. Bought some stuff, yay! :) I was at this shop, and they were selling 2ndhand items, old cameras like the Brownie, and nice nice earrings. And the lady boss and her daughter were very friendly. The daughter looks really familiar, and her cheerful look really made me happy. Fortunate to have a short talk with her, and she just graduate from Chulalongkorn University. She look cute, something like Karen Mok. I somehow eyecandy her too, like how I eyecandy Karen. Haaha, oh my, s-c-y-t-h-i-a go!(cheer). Don't worry Melissa, Branny is just friendly here aye :D

Dinner was awesome too! I had two bowls of Wanton Noodles, one soup noodle and another dry one. It was really awesome. Followed by Mango Sticky Rice, I can leave Bangkok happily after today. Though I know I'll miss the colleague and the friendly people I've met for the past month. Gotta be forward looking, its going to be for the better, I know.

Sweet talk with Melissa, aaahaha, I certianly miss it.

Loveydoveywithmelissa,
Brandon

188/365- i miss this particular dog

2009-08-29T06:55:00.006-07:00

i had one of my worst manicure experiences + wrong choice of colour.

That'll stay on for the next 2 days, hopefully if im not that lazy to get it removed, i'll pick something else, urgh!

He went for a drink.

i need a socialator, a stress-lifter, a brain developer with 3 triple A batteries, a mini embedded movie screen for brain, charger for eyes and an appetite looser. ZXZXZX, shock me baby!

Mathafucker, no one's at home today. Brandon's having his fun swinging, Philoe and boyfriend went dating, Ham's out shopping, i guess this spells loner today mel. that reminds me, i never had a life since then, im trying damn hard to. Any friends u know of who blog everyday, come, ring me :) give me your name, i'll make friends with you:) FFF. i wish Mac would poof into flames now, nah not.

Aye Hi, i haven tell you how it is like to live with a family :)

it feels like a third party, but if your "family" accepts you and treats u like a family, it'll be slightly different. Not like you'll get scoldings from the parents or being treated like a biological child, it'll be an adult to adult sessions. like living alone, i'll only feel youthful when im out with friends, or in my room.

Spell lonely somebady,

MY BOO.

m. 1018pm

29 aug 09

home

188/365 - Sex-minded, again?!

2009-08-29T01:58:00.000-07:00

Cabbages and Condom! The entire restaurant is filled with Condoms! On the lamps, on the walk way, on the posters, on the walls. Luckily not on our plates.
This restaurant aims to educate safe sex. Interesting right! When we paid our bills, we all received one condom each. And I'm keeping it in my wallet. Just incase aye? Haaaaaahaha.
No la chey.

Today I tired my first Thai Massage! It was.. fairly interesting. Twist here twist there, press here press there. But I think I still prefer a Shoulder Massage or a Foot Massage. Sorry Thai Massage.

I was reading BK Magazine, similar to Singapore's I-S Magazine. So there were the regular +Nightlife+ section. I read about this club, $15 dollars for entry, comes with a glass of drink and a reggae mix CD as it was a reggae night. Went to seach for the club, and when I reach, I was disappointed. The front of the club is like a typical Singapore shophouse, and there were serveral ladies outside the club. Immediately I turned away and decided to go home.

I was supposed to meet Chris and Poy, but Chris was sick! Oh man oh man, I really really wanna meet you Chris! I don't have much time left, so ya, hope we get to meet while we can yeah.

DesperadocauseIwannameetChrisPoyup!
Brandon

187/365 - obviously, cos his gf is such a defunct.

2009-08-28T09:51:00.001-07:00

fun.

gleeful.

catch up.

dinner.

missings.

desserts.

moon cafe.

family sessions with an invited jazz player .

catch up with gf.

goodnight.

wornout mushrooms.

m.home.

236am

TIRED.

28 AUG 09

187/365 - Messy again

2009-08-28T06:04:00.001-07:00

Oh man oh man, why is today so bad! Wanted to go to Siam to get my wifi over the shop, but seems like I need to DIY it at the 7-11 store. :(

Boss made us do work till late late late late, the other guys went home too, and now I'm alone at this little shop along street Sukhumvit 71. Oh man, sometimes I really enjoy time alone, oh brandy you loner.

I blogged a lot while in the restaurant, but darn it wasn't saved! :(

Okay I can recall alittle bit, saying that I know of this cafe that was super nice. Vintage cushions and pillows and motorbikes and magazines and the normal coffee drink list, with brownies and ice-cream available.

Futsal tournament this Sunday :) Party with Chris and Poy tomorrow I think :)

Sigh, i dont know what im typing. k bye!

Friday oh friday, every friday I'll say TGIF. Was my stay here really that bad? To me it isn't, because I enjoy living alone and doing things alone. But definitely I still love meeting people yeah.

Morning was a presentation with the boss and colleague, and it was terrible. It seems like a battle without tactics. We went it, got killed, and left. I've learn harder that we must must must be prepared before any plans. Like a battle must have its strategies and tactics.

Boss shared something I think I'm remembering it hard. -A poor drawn piece of art can cost $50 dollars to $500,000. When it was drawn poorly, nobody took notice of it. But when someone appreciates it, think that it is nice, the people around him would start to appreciate it as it means something to the someone. And when that happens, the value of the art goes up.

I dont know if anyone who read that understands me, I've not going to rephrase or whattttda. Hahaha. But it was a good learning point. And my after thoughts about it. -If we think that something is good, it will be good.

Thingsaregettingmessy
Brandon

186/365- what a small world

2009-08-26T19:18:00.001-07:00

surrprrisseee~

Alright, I crashed P's lesson today, had to cos i missed out mine on monday.

Talks till now made me feel its such a small world out there.

The homey i went last night, his westernized sister's childhood bestfriend was my Sg Tpoly's clique friend.

His friend's brother's girlfriend is my classmate.

And wad's worst, the french guy who grinded on me during Arab party is the boyfriend of this mixed girl i met in Philoemina's class.And Guess what, the guy made out with my friend.

F for Fulgarity.

No i wasnt up to any mischief last night.

infact i rested the earliest in the house party, while 2 of them were completely knocked out before anyone else knew it and the rest chilled arnd.

They had shots and shots while i had bit pieces.

I know i aint good in drinking but least i know my limits:)

Jamming and drinking jamming and drinking.

i was dying for a rest cos its either rest or spew.

In return they had mixture of vomit out, out and out. Arghhh, its sooo damn disgusting.

Anyway yesterday was cool, i made friends with "doctor","psychologist" and a "vet", cos its sooo common to make friends from business school, that this time was different. a class of different profession, today i met a "nutritionalist". hahaha:)

Joined Hanley and his roommates for dinner today, and found out that all 5 guys are going thru lond distance relationships too! All are 2 years and above, tell me about it.

I started asking Hanley all sorts of guyeeeyy questions on our way home.

Like how would a quiet guy in any circumstance woo a pretty pretty girl, with guts, or hope?

and all sorts of qn my mind would die to know.

He evaluated, that this beginning 6 months of my rs would be make this fresh ldr* tough, but heyyy, why judge the presence negatively when you're going thru it, just live and enjoy the Now, that'll do.

Anyways its darn common to see LDR around here. The guy whose house i went last night, his sister of my age is going thru a rs of 5 years, a start of a ldr as her bf went back for NS, all the best man these childhood lovers.

i see hope,

i see death too.

My day ended well, we talked about our past, some stuff so lovely, i dont know, it feeels soo good to reminisce everything again.

the good o' past. ahha.

*LDR= long distance relationship.

goodnight there.

m.p's class

1159pm

27aug09

186/365- I had a wonderful day

2009-08-26T19:17:00.000-07:00

This morning, I woke up 40 minutes earlier than usual, and I took the bicycle out for a short cycle. The air was fresh, crisp, free from exhausts. I enjoyed it, exchanging smiles with the locals, watching them going to work and stuff like that.

I was buying Satay and sticky rice for breakfast, and the roadside seller started to speak Thai to me. I would love to be able to talk to him in Thai, but the little phrases I knew weren't able to match up to his speech. I simply said, "Mai Khao Jai"(I don't understand). He thought I was a Filipino, but no no sir, I'm a Singapore lah.

Work was fine, with laughter today, and learned a little more on numbers. The auntie who takes care of us BBQ-ed some seafood and rice, it was awesome, A-W-E-S-O-M-E!

Went out with the boss, and now back in the office. One of my colleague Bee brought us to the gym and swim pool as we wanted to exercise, helped us to know the prices and all. 3 months membership for the pool is about $13 dollars, with each entry to the pool at $2 dollars. :)

Gonna spend some money one unlimited Wi-Fi too, so yes, Skype and Twitter all the way!
Add me on skype, my username is rojakman. :)))

Today's lunch was aweawesome again! Boss brought seafood back from Hua hin, and today the servant brought out her BBQ stove, and she BBQ-ed an entire crab for me for lunch!

Awesome or not. :) It was an entire crab, and hence my first time dissecting a crab. The crab had lungs, and eggs. So I removed both of them, and slowly devour the crab, leg by leg, and finally the joint area, the one that connects all the legs to the body. Meaty, so meaty(Slurrrp). Its like flower crab luh haaha :)

I can remember the previous time, I caught a teeny winny flower crab at Punggol with Jinglie, I brought it home and cooked it for Maggie Mee. And the maggie mee tasted heavenly, but days later I know I was just comforting myself because the crab was my only catch that trip.

Talking about fishing, I recently got to know Eugene Chang goes fishing too :) Lets go fishing Mr Chang!

Takecarefriendsfamily!
Brandon

185/365 - spooky

2009-08-26T07:29:00.003-07:00

pic #185 is spooky but thats the only pic i have today, dont mind me.

i tried to do as much as i can but apparently it isnt working.

ive been emitting gases lately,trying to stop!

Was talkimg to P about needing a life tonight badly and A Life gave me a call that instant, dammn happy about it!

i had a v v v full meal today, i hope i dint gain yikes!

Selling Van's polaroid away! anyone??

contact me if u want, thanks:)

m. school

26aug09

900pm

185/365 - .dwg, .fla, .aep, .psd, .ai and .mel, .bran

2009-08-26T07:29:00.001-07:00

Just a small rack, but it really inspires me a lot more on IT and its application.

Today was a tiring day again, I dont know why. I slept pretty much the night before but still, feel tired the entire day!

Hope tomorrow would be better :)

B.
10:10pm
26August2009

184/365 - im finishing the notebook.

2009-08-24T22:36:00.002-07:00

off to school now!
Byez!

m. 137pm
home

184/365 - I wanna indulge

2009-08-24T22:36:00.001-07:00

I saw the magazine in Bangkok, and nice meal and view from a hotel top doesn't cost a bomb here.

Too bad I don't have Melissa with me, if not I'm sure we'll do what we both love, eat! I am thinking of starting a scrap book, start cutting articles and pasting them on this book, so in future when I come to Bangkok again, I know the places with the good food, music, and people. Right right right. It's been a tiring day today for me, I wonder why, but its good to sleep early everyday. Work output was really low today, but no issues, I'm still doing fine.

I don't know how to express my feelings regarding my 4th week stay here. There is still about 2-3 more months that I'm going to stay here. It isn't too short, isn't too long. But I know it is going to come and go very very quickly. Nonetheless, I'm still enjoying my time here, the food and the daily dogs barking and construction, the lovely voices of my colleagues and the scheduled working hours. Didn't exactly liked scheduled working hours, but hey, do I have a choice Brandon? :)

Okay. I conclude today is a good day, except for missing someone so badly.(Heh you know who <----------------)

Okay, Sawadee!

B.
8.17PM
25August2009

183/365 - HALFWAY THERE:)

2009-08-24T07:24:00.003-07:00

HELLO, ITS OUR 365/2 th DAY:)

fortunately, class was cancelled, she's quite an irresponsible lecturer but pray/hope God would look after her health. ive been reminding myself to be kind be kind cos i remembered when i was pri 6 i wondered why there are mean people. ppl changes with environment unknowingly and thinks its alright to be of par with the society. In any ways, be kind at heart. girls~ leave bitching & gossiping aside.

vv worn out today, made futile trips, even field trip to the musuem this afternoon lasted only for an hour, drained me. Hung on to my body and continued with what's needed to be done today.dint able to complete, but i tried:)

3 cups of coffee lasted till now and im feeling sleepy again, nights yall.

tummyaches and vomitting signs. sigh.

Tml's gonna be a long day again, yooohoo.

m. utopia

1231am

24 aug09

183/365 - 1 divide by 2! Halfway!

2009-08-24T07:24:00.001-07:00

183 * 2 = 366.

We're reaching :)

Time passes so fast when you look at the past, but when you look in the present and future, time is still passing in ticks, in seconds. That is for me, for now.

Been missing Melissa real badly, we've not met for about 2months, and we're still going to seperate for another 3 months before we will meet. Or hopefully, we'll get to meet in October before my trip in November to Perth.

Feeling real low yesterday night. But its better now.

B

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182/365 - sisters and sisters we'll always be, a couple of memories in the family tree

2009-08-23T09:28:00.001-07:00

was trying to camwhore with sis, but Spud dug in, instant snaps!

Diary entry:

Friendship still grows, pretty amazing i felt.

First i met branda,evan, then Lj and Co and Joot.

ive been living my days without people close to me. Life at abroad has defs caused barriers and less bondings, i'm still pleased to feel a twinge of friendship living amongst kids and me. I knew i wasnt close to Branda physically at the start, but common interest (KPOFC) and tender love and care from each other build it up. I would feel at ease to have people talking to me about their lives despite the distance. It may be short-term or long, but talks and TLC like this, * i like.

Clique of friends that ive met last night has gotten some thoughts registered.Long before, we grew close after sec school, all of them worked in the same event restaurant while i squeezed in for a share of fun. Everyone then was single and was sticking close to each other. But with love relationship studies and every features of life tightening individual's schedules,we started to drift in a way or two. that's alright,bcos almost everyone stays near each other excluding me, so its pretty easy for a meet up. Ytd's dinner though was small short and abrupt, i still feel a trace closeness like how childhood friends do. Its amazing how far i am right now, we hardly chat these days, but time spent like ytd was heartwarming for me. Perhaps im out here alone, a little c&c would lighten my day up, let alone meet up with people of the same kind. Laughter and sharing sessions.'childhood' reminscences. friends like children of the same mom. Ele. With all smiles. After ive moved away, i grew to realize that this bond belonged to a past, but still moves on as we grow.

Evan's friendship with mua is something i couldnt comprehend at first. She made me realize that sharing this particular type of care and concern isnt just for our opposite partners, but this can take place in friends as well. we werent close in union at first. but God left us with amazing funny encounters,those same guys that come across our lives and became past. she made me understand that if a friend really loves you, she'll go for you. From efforts to trying to meet up with busy schedules and revision, to sending me off everytime no matter how early the flight is. how true xoxo is that can be found. im thankful (quoted) and glad that i've met a friend like you. A special friend. Thanks lovely :)

Brandon lee! i left a part for you as well, but 've read them out to you, hope u know, u know.

feeling all thoughtful today,

goodnight

212am

23 aug 09

182/365 - masssssive!

2009-08-23T09:23:00.000-07:00

I like the songs in this album. It costs $25 dollars, I knew exactly how expensive and how not worth it to spend it on a CD, but the music soothes my heart. I guess that is all that matters :)

Just did a upload of pictures in Facebook! Hmm mmmhmmm.
Been thinking a lot about Melissa and Perth these days, and its drawing nearer! :)

Love eating in Thailand, cheap and good. Loooooove it!
B.
11:29am
23aug2009

181/365 - M

2009-08-22T07:05:00.003-07:00

im sorry its been one day one sentence post lately,

but that's all that is needed to sum up the day.

Vangirl joined bro cousin and me to some shopping spree. Bro became my walking atm and boy i have my peace ,i am the queen today.haha. Nah, i just shopped my last bit off. feeling better :)

Brandon had prolly spurred alot of thoughts in me lately. Thoughts like why im spending unnecessarily and if there's a need to. True boy, my bad? i guess i just want more. Time to stop mello.

Met my secondary school clique. Though days spent today wasnt exactly far behind, it feels like im living with childhood. Like as though i haven had childhood during my little days, they were my first childhood friends. lovely. Shared stories with them, had the same sense of laughter again, that's a relief.

Though that 5 mins meetup with Bf was short,but at least we've met.

tml will be one tiring day again.

m. home.

1am

22 aug 09

181/365 - everlasting love

2009-08-22T07:05:00.001-07:00

I'm now sitting at a lounge, a cool place where music played are of bossa nova, or perhaps jazzy. Songs played were like Lucky(Jason Mraz), Apologise(Timbaland) but in their jazzy form. Sweet.

I just finished reading the Notebook, and it was a fantastic read. Expecially when I'm in a similar situation, like how Melissa and I hope that our relationship would be like. The unconditioned love, the everlasting love, the sweety talks and the intimacy, the forgiving heart and the strong attraction we hold.

Going to catch the movie online tonight :)

It has been 3 weeks that I'm in Bangkok, and I think I'm going to upload some pictures of me and the places that I've been to in Facebook. The pictures weren't fantastic, thats why I didn't want to post it up. But oh yeah, just want everyone else to see my living conditions and my sights. Okay, not blogging long long pages these days, oh ho :)

21:14

22Aug09

180/365- saves money for manicure to buy a van

2009-08-21T11:13:00.002-07:00

Evan and I had thoughts of doing manicure but dint mention it until we realised it was abit too late. Taz:) Joined my family for dinner today.

Played with mickey's cam the whole night, cant stop.

thatsall.

m. 132am

21 aug 09

180/365 - Which side are you on?

2009-08-21T11:13:00.001-07:00

Finally, I think I spoke more today. Javius has been feeling very low, because we weren't able to communicate. I have been very quiet, however the thing is, I don't see a fault here.

Sometimes it seems like there are two sides to Brandon Lee, first an outspoken, friendly, humble person and the other side of him, perhaps a individualist, a thinker, dreamer.

Sometimes spending time alone seems a good choice too. No need to bother about how to put up oneself to face the others, making sure words spoken won't hurt, making sure the impression is good. By spending time alone, I do my own things, I do my work properly, I spend time with myself, I feel peace inside. When I take a look at the world, when I get involved with the world, things aren't just that simple. So many hatred, so many argument, so many discomfort.

I guess I felt better after I trashed out my discomfort with one of the school lecturer, because what I am doing, I felt isn't what I should be doing. I reasoned that the school told me my jobscope, and it turned out to be something else. But still I took it in, I tried my best to deal with it right. But as weeks passed, it's just getting tougher and tougher. And I think the days ahead would be better from now onwards.

Sometimes, why are human so driven? Some are so determined that they lose our values in life. For me, I still want things simple, I still want to live a simple life. A happy, stressless and full of fun and laughter in my family with my wife and kids.

Brandon.

179/365- family

2009-08-20T08:47:00.000-07:00

im quite sure they'll kill me for posting their morning faces if they find out.

Met up with Branda for dinner, lovely lovely:)

She showered me with many juicy encounters

Bro drove me home and back to town today. i dont enjoy talking to him cos half the time we hang out, he'll be the one talking nonstop, arrggghh.

1st doctor did not give me any prescription for my tummyache, how sick. Cos the second doc thinks that there's some problem with my intestines, or that im having some bowel syndrome -.-

Either ways i hope its not that bad cos its getting on my nerves.

Home for issues, issues.

Probe further, treat it that im back for a vacation.

m. home.

131am

20. aug 09

179/365- The secret.

2009-08-20T00:10:00.000-07:00

The eyebags and pimples. I'm having menses! :P

I wonderful experience, because I think nobody would have done what both of us did. It was magical, and it came to make me realise quite a number of things. I got to be more alert from now on, because sometimes we just have to eat some shit, but at least I must ask, hey what's in this shit and why do I have to eat it.

Seems like Mel is happy to meet B2 and B3, however B1 is still not within your reach yet :)

Save Now

178/365 - There you go.

2009-08-19T02:49:00.001-07:00

A: quite nice!!

B: Yes, quite nice, but uve got the thot of leaving.

A: nice so what?

C: (nice DAI SAI,obviously.)

Hey! did i mention, after slipping on the slimy ground in the main cafe earning public gaze from everyone last tuesday,few days later i crashed into a bush while trying hard to multi-task on a bicycle? thumbs up! * you like.

Midterm test today was horrible3.

is it me, or is Peter Z's witty horrigible test bringing me boomarks?

our class genius haven had a clue what happened back there.

but be on cloud nine y'all! pls make a getaway!

For me, trouble's ahead.

little strawberries perked my day up again.

they were playing in the playground in their red hat and red garments,

teachers tending to those nursery toddlers and kids are suree nice people.

if youre there later, we could have celebrated our monthly birthday:)

meooww. home on the range

THE 6th month:)

614pm

19june09

178/365 - Same shit, different day

2009-08-18T19:53:00.000-07:00

Didn't had a good rest yesterday, getting it more today! :D

Boss was out, so we went out to get milk tea too!

Same shit, different day. Boo.

B.
19Aug2009

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177/365 - hello photoshop :)

2009-08-18T11:18:00.001-07:00

the weather has been quite fine lately. Have been busy with revision. Went to lib, came home cos i left my notes at home. P came and we had a good laugh over sorts. Laughlaughlaugh.

Had a chat that exceeded the limit, but was worthwhile.

Hideous enough.

m. zzz.

porch.

349pm

177/365 - Bad Day

2009-08-18T09:58:00.000-07:00

A entire day spoilt by my boss, when he woke me up before the time I planned to, just to do work for him. So negative, so bad today.

B.

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176/365- daisy daisy i love daisy.

2009-08-17T04:34:00.001-07:00

the colour dissaturates my smile,damnn.
THERE YOU GO PHIL, my first time wearing this birthday suit after receiving from you'all :)

Woohooo, free winter wear, why not!

oh yes do you know? My friend P Lee is getting married soon, to a Dubai guy, to Taj Mahal, to land of brown complexion boyss. Xiang qing chu horrrR:)

i sneaked up to my neighbour's house to have a picture of his garden taken, secs later he got out of his car and stared." I LOOOOOOVE YOUR GARDEN." i was granted permission to stay as long as i want there after that. baahahha.

Need a early nap now, TAZ:)

m. sweet dreams, im a beautiful nightmare.

homesweethome.

17 july 09

176/365 - my girlfriend takes nice pictures

2009-08-17T04:33:00.000-07:00

I really liked melissa's pictures, when she puts in the effort to compose them :P
I saw her picture today before I took mine. Lets get high and higher(sean teo's blog title)!

Today was a stressful day, really really. Boo day.

Boss wanted us to do something even he don't know how to do? Hmm. Isn't this bad, 3 weeks and we're not adapting well to it. Give it 2 more weeks! :)

Had a good walk down the streets today, saw the street food, had milk tea too! I wanna meet chris, poy and mi soon.

I wanna go fishing this weekend.

B.
11:41PM

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